I feel so physically exhausted, but mentally I am so in turmoil.
It's like something nagging me at the back of my mind constantly. Whenever I stop to rest, it comes. And when I am actively chatting thinking or playing, it disappears.
And thanks to Guo, I got a new contemplatation : Should I put braces?
Well, he's a damn nice guy advising me with a bit of his ego and humour but afterall, I think he meant the best. Problem is I don't think I can at this stage already.
ARGH! HAO FAN ARH. Even DotA cannot cure this shit.
Speaking of it, I decided to withdraw from competition. I pull out cause of several personal reasons, which I explained to Marcus. I don't think DotA is my cup of tea despite all the kills I have and all. I don't think I am suited for competition. And also I don't wish to get hooked to it again. Cause it ruins alot of stuff.
Note : This days I look constantly at the skies, not for wierd reasons but for some logical reason.
Carrying your name, close to me.
10:53 PM
10:53 PM
A very gloomy day despite the Sun out so fierce.
Had time to contemplate a few things that used to happen/now happen to me. I dunno what to say actually. Haha you may think it's -.- or what but I am really bugged.
1. Haha, past already. Stop looking back. Just wish her on.
2. Must you be so stubborn for this one?
3. Your self-importance is you ownself raise one ah?
3 questions to hink about today. I hate it when I think too deep or too far back. It sucks big time.
Today is November 30th.
Carrying your name, close to me.
4:38 PM
4:38 PM
So I am not going to Barcelona afterall. =)
I wanna spend Christmas here. But my Mum thinks that London will be the backup. Oh please let the owner of the apartments just rent out to someone before us.
Anyway here is my Christmas wishlist. Oh Santa, if you grant everything here I don't mind scrubbing Rudolf and all the other reindeer's asses on Boxing Day.
Wishlist
1. A new computer.
2. PS3.
3. The whole of 4e1'06 together.
4. The whole of 2e3'04 together + Keith.
5. Everyone will be joyful this holiday season.
Saying Merry Christmas was never harder than this year.
Carrying your name, close to me.
3:48 PM
3:48 PM
Summary of today's DotA adventures : TRIPLE KILL!
The Sand King was just fine baby, although those guys might have been noobs.
Not bad for a day. Began to random abit here and there. Got the hang of a few heros back.
And best of all, I am among the top scorers for the serious games today.
Carrying your name, close to me.
12:21 AM
12:21 AM
I always believed in telling the truth. So here goes.
We lost 12-3 on Saturday. No excuses. The absence of Adrian in defence does not mean that we simply let the other team bull-doze us to the ground. But we eventually crumbled.
NS-Men or NSF( by Samuel ) they are, their bodies are far superior than ours and that was the vital factor.
We won many games as a team, now we feel the loss as a team. No finger-pointing as to who was at fault, the whole team was.
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The only bright spots on Saturday were as follows :
1. Guang is really the indispensable player. Tireless and saving our ass from a rugby score.
2. Tik Koon was not bad in LB but has to watch the line at times.
3. Tom showed 1 spark of brilliance, proving that he is an upcoming star.
I got a stud into my ankle, a knock into my knee and I limp when going about my house. THAT IS THE RESULT OF PLAYNG WITH MEN.
So we tasted our first defeat and yes, it was definitely bitter. I think I completely sucked at defence.
Carrying your name, close to me.
8:58 AM
8:58 AM
If I dont't say this now, I won't be able to go sleep.
"HEY! Your mother showed me some love last night. And I rode her downtown."
After Daniel said it, I keep on mentally saying it lah. To the extent that when people ask me stuff, I had to fight back the impulse to say " Your mother "
No offence, but it was just too funny.
AND JIEHUI IS THE TYPO QUEEN OF YEAR 2006! HER TYPING IS REALLY SUMMARISED IN 1 WORD.
WORNG TYPING.
Carrying your name, close to me.
1:46 AM
1:46 AM
Sometimes people say things you don't like to hear, but what they say is actually reality.
You cannot hide from reality so just accept the truth and just move on with life. Life doesn't wait for you. Who cares 2 hoots about you?! NOBODY!
What I am saying is sometimes what you see/hear is not exactly what you LIKE to hear. We people have grown so accustomed to seeing/hearing what we like to see/hear that we actually reject reality.
Thanks Jib and Guo for the reality check these week. I guess I have been building castles in the air for just too damn long. Time to come back to Earth.
Hate it or love it, the Earth does not revolve about you.
It's especially hard to move on. If you get what I mean.
Thank God I got this off my mind after that chat with Najib. Signs are growing too clear already. I can't stop it BUT I can delay it. From the day of truth.
Carrying your name, close to me.
6:40 PM
6:40 PM
I keep thinking about Sembawang MRT station at sunset and the words that were said there. From you smile to those words, something in me reignited.
We were almost, oh so close yet never meant to be. Opposite each other every year with the exception of June, November and December yet never talk to each other when we meet.
I guess every story has an ending and for ours, it was better off this way
=)
You still look great after all those years and your smile still lives in me, although incidentally, there is another smile that sends me into a frenzy.
Good luck girl in your life, God Bless.
=D
Carrying your name, close to me.
6:58 PM
6:58 PM
LOOK AT THAT MORON!
This picture was taken the day before E-Maths Paper 2. Too hard working = not good for health.
As usual, studying just before the big day and I was actually running on an empty petrol cause I missed breakfast and lunch just to "mug".
Haha, oh man I thought it was going to be long. Hell it was a short time. Before I knew it, I was the idiot running out of the hall like a reatard when everyone was still sitting there.
Oh the feeling of being free. Ironically, I will miss studying.
AND I SWEAR I AM NOT GOING TO SIT IN FRONT OF MY COMPUTER LIKE A ZOMBIE PLAYING DOTA OVERNIGHT.
Ta-ma-de shit exams. Now be gone with you, pieces of shit. Go off to England and get marked.
On a serious note, just think about not how well you had did BUT think about how hard will you cry on the Results Release Day.
CHEERS BIG TIME MATES!!!!!!!!! =DDDDD
Carrying your name, close to me.
9:27 PM
9:27 PM
You know why I love Mourinho? Just listen to this from today's The Straits Times, Sports Section.
Premiership club Chelsea's manager Jose Mourinho has criticised
their quiet supporters and demanded to know why they are consistently out sung
by the away football fans.His team demolished Aston Villa and Watford 4-0 in the las two
games at Stamford Bridge, but it was visiting fans that taunted with chants of :
" Four-nil and you still don't sing."The Daily Mail reported Mourinho as saying : " I think the
players deserve a little bit more support. I'm not happy when 1,500 away fans,
3,000 at most, support more than our fans. it's winter, and to sing is good to
fight against the cold."
Class. No one has that humour except for him. Respect. This got me laughing at 6.15 in the morning.
Carrying your name, close to me.
3:17 PM
3:17 PM
TWO BIG WORDS : FUCK E-MATHS
Calvin will agree with me big time.
1 week gone, 1 week to freedom.
I hate you Cambridge. BIG TIME
Carrying your name, close to me.
8:20 PM
8:20 PM
When you're close to tears remember
Some day it'll all be over
One day we're gonna get so high
And though it's darker than December
What's ahead is a different colour
One day we're gonna get so high
And at
The end of the day remember the days
When we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through the night
The end of the day remember the way
We stayed so close till the end
We'll remember it was me and you
'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love
Don't you think it's time you started
Doing what we always wanted
One day we're gonna get so high
'Cause even the impossible is easy when we got each other
One day 'we're gonna get so high
And at
The end of the day remember the days when we were close to the edge
And we'll wonder how we made it through the night
The end of the day remember the way
We stayed so close to till the end
We'll remember it was me and you.
'Cause we are gonna be forever you and me
You will always keep me flying high in the sky of love'
"High" By Lighthouse Family.
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A song to all those who feeel they cannot take the stress. Just remember it's 2 more weekends for 4e1, 2 weekends and a little bit more for the rest. Thanks to Guo for this super song.
But anyway just hang in there. We are all in it together. Let's pawn the O Levels.
Carrying your name, close to me.
4:27 PM
4:27 PM
No offecnce to the Indian population or what, but if Literature is going to be like this every year, I will go lose my marbles and start talking like you guys.
First text was The English Teacher, set in India. Fair enough. BUT TO HAVE THE UNSEEN ALSO SET THERE?!?!?!
I was like "URGH! WTF" when I saw the words "rupee" and also wierd names. Ok so maybe Varun's name isnt wierd but at that time I was like -.- already
The last part of the unseen was the best question. You see, it involved a woman talking to her daughter about arranged marriages on the day of her daughter's wedding. So the last question was : How did the author make the conversation entertaining?
Naturally people would have wrote about techniques and emotions during the conversation.
I SO WANTED TO WRITE : THE AUTHOR MADE THEM SPEAK IN INDIAN ACCENTS, WITH THEIR HEADS GOING LEFT AND RIGHT, GENERATING AN ALTERNATING CURRENT IN THE PROCESS.
But I guess Shankaran would have murdered me so I stuck with the usual. It was really such an ROFL thought at that time that I could not help grinning at the reactions of the Cambridge markers if I wrote that.
So goodbye for now until the Os are over, the worst part being that we have to wait for our results.
First text was The English Teacher, set in India. Fair enough. BUT TO HAVE THE UNSEEN ALSO SET THERE?!?!?!
I was like "URGH! WTF" when I saw the words "rupee" and also wierd names. Ok so maybe Varun's name isnt wierd but at that time I was like -.- already
The last part of the unseen was the best question. You see, it involved a woman talking to her daughter about arranged marriages on the day of her daughter's wedding. So the last question was : How did the author make the conversation entertaining?
Naturally people would have wrote about techniques and emotions during the conversation.
I SO WANTED TO WRITE : THE AUTHOR MADE THEM SPEAK IN INDIAN ACCENTS, WITH THEIR HEADS GOING LEFT AND RIGHT, GENERATING AN ALTERNATING CURRENT IN THE PROCESS.
But I guess Shankaran would have murdered me so I stuck with the usual. It was really such an ROFL thought at that time that I could not help grinning at the reactions of the Cambridge markers if I wrote that.
So goodbye for now until the Os are over, the worst part being that we have to wait for our results.
Carrying your name, close to me.
8:32 AM
8:32 AM
