Edited a few things on the right.

1. Removed some non-existent blogs, changed 1 or 2 names.

2. Changed from RadioBlogClub to imeem for the music cause RDC was limited.

Please tag if the song can't play. It sucks when your speakers are mute permanently.

AND LEE JIE HUI! I FELT SAND IN MY BED LAST NIGHT!

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9:11 AM

I CAPTAINED MPFC FOR THE FIRST TIME AND IT WAS ONE OF MY BEST GAMES FOR THE CLUB. CHEERS AND SMILES!!!! =D

I don't grade myself but the referee, who was biased towards the other team, said I was "an excellent last man." We drew 2-2 though, thanks to a largely controversial goal.

It's so nice to relax and listen to John Legend's P.D.A(We Just Don't Care) after the match.

Cool. =D

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Mark - *[ Whichever way you describe. ]* says:
guang
Mark - *[ Whichever way you describe. ]* says:
wad time u free?
[c=5][YiQuAn!][i][b] forget... never... [/b][/i][/c] says:
i'm always priceless like i told u
Mark - *[ Whichever way you describe. ]* says:
-.-
Mark - *[ Whichever way you describe. ]* says:
okay
Mark - *[ Whichever way you describe. ]* says:
wrong question


NEVER EVER ask Guang that kinda question. And when you are talking to Guo, Danny and some of the chaps don't start your sentence with "You know..."

Cause we will reply you : "ACTUALLY I don't know, BUT I swear if you really take time to tell me, I will know." You can play around by extending it to the long winded version to wind your friends up too.

Trend setter of this line : Daniel "mushed potato" Guo.

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2:57 PM

I just realised how disorientated I can be when I wake up.

1. I forgot to lock my house door when I went out to buy breakfast.

2. I can't speak properly and I find myself sort of sulking my way to the market.

And this is why I say my brain won't work in the morning.

Uncle : So yam milkshake arh?
Me : Yeah.
Uncle : No pearl can arh?
Me : Umm.
Uncle : Still $1.50 without pearl hor.
Me : Correct.

I think I was just too blur to figure out what I was trying to mean by saying "Correct"

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11:40 AM

Holy crap, I got mixed up with Bayshore Road and Laguna Condo there. End up I have ter walk back all the way from CK's house. Incidentally he saw me strolling home.

Today was pure entertainment and hang loose after 2 days of intense gambling and visiting. It's been almost a week since I last saw the MPFC guys and hanging out with them again, especially the joke-deprieved Danny, was a pleasure.

This has to be one of the better nights I am having so far.

1. I think I am damn sian of smoking.

2. I think I don't wanna go around making people think of me as a beng

3. I hated that disappointing look on your face last Friday, it out-burnt the ciagrette that I hold everytime.

4. I am sick of hiding here and there lighting up and blowing smoke from me mouth. I go home evryday smeeling like a F***-Tart.

5. Ciagrettes really burnt a hole in my pocket BIG TIME.

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Just saw Bertrand's PM on MSN which I thought was damn good.

" War does not determine who is right - only who is left."

Deep thinking abit and it's a bloody meaningful message.

Carrying your name, close to me.
12:07 AM

Joke video of the year

LOL

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3:28 PM

O-M-G
H-O-T

I think I need a chair. I am going to go gaga over her. I know this song was like 2004 come out one, but this is why I am so F***ing smitten with her!

=D HAHAHAHA Jolin Tsai

*Faint with fancy*

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4:26 PM

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8:37 PM

Shopping with the group was ultra fun. Obviously its for Valentine's Day and I think my cookies are edible.

Not bad for first timer! Please clap clap!!!!!

Shopping with them is pure nuts. And I had to walk all the way back to Jalan Langgar Bedok.

2 chefs at work, when actually the cooking was done by Xuewei's maid.

Ok la, preparation by them was not too bad. I rate Aaron's sotong rings and Calvin's weird shaped chickens 4/5.

Not bad for first timers too!

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Valentine's Day. Some will end in the pits, some will end in the heavens. Today I saw both sides and I ended mine in the middle. All of a sudden I got my old self back. It feels great to talk cock to people already man. Mickey at 7-11, the auntie who bought cookies from Danny's mum. I just feel the right mood to be totally helpful and eloquent-than-before now. =D

Yeah, I think I feel my old self coming back to me. Mark Zheng JunWu your number 1 talking nonsense yet sensitive best friend! I came back from a "break" with Calvin. Funny how sometimes he makes me laugh at his antics, but that's what I needed. Laughter, the best medicine.

Ahhh, it was a good Valentine's Day afterall. I just end with the final statement. Rhetoric statement. Just letting the Over-Thinking wheel in my mind work for one last time.

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" In a world where you were the glass, I now have a shattered image of you. Oh how the fragments of the sharp edges cut me yet the pain is not numbing enough to get to me.

In a world where you were the mug, I now see stains of black coffee and black liqour in your wasted white surface. Oh how it ruined the elegance and purity.

In a world where you were the rose, I now smell a Rafflesia within the petals, corrupting the ever-pretty image of that one perfect rose. Oh how it takes the shine off the beautiful flower."

Races your brains and engages your perceptions and persepctives on my words. It's also time to adopt a favourite policy of Calvin and mine when we were in school.

Old and Effective formula : Stay Neutral.

Smiles babe, it's the day of love-showing, love-making and love-breaking. Cheers to all who scored well for V-Day and encouragement goes to those who scored my A-Maths results on V-Day.

Carrying your name, close to me.
12:23 AM

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1:06 AM

5 reasons why my birthday is going to be happy

1. I scored my first 2 goals for MPFC. =D

2. My results were better than expected.

3. SOME GOONS CALLED ME AT MIDNIGHT AND TREATED MY WHOLE FAMILY TO A BIRTHDAY SONG.

4. All your greetings, whether it's in ungodly hours or normal hours, I appreciate it all the same. Love!

5. Najib, we did it! WAHAHAHAHA

5 reasons why my birthday maybe sad

1. I don't really have any solid plans as of 10am.

2. I want the Air Supremacy (white) boots!!!

3. I might not be free until after 6.30pm

4. I don't feeel older/different.

5. My birthday wish is not going to come true.

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9:22 AM

It was vindication beyond words. The moment Mr Yong told me "Mark, you qualified for JC!" I laughed my a** out big time. I never sniffed JC air in my secondary school life, I swear.

When I saw the double A1 for Literature and English, I exclaimed out "WTF!" earning a slap on the shoulder by Mrs Hua.

Then it came. Tears of joy. tears of relief, tears of vindication in the middle of the school hall. I cried like a pussy and a 5 year old girl but I just cried. Mr Yong texted me at 9 plus "I'm so glad to see you cry for joy. For the first time I think you really feel that you have finally made it."

I did it. I sprinted across the finishing line. I began with trips and stutters. My tears show how much I worked. Although it may not seem fantastic to people, to shave 10 points off is absolutely magical stuff.

Najib, we did it. From bottom dwellers to where we stand now. It took 5 exams of disappointment, but the final one was our zenith of form. We proved to people. We proved to our folks. We proved them wrong finally.

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Some teachers said I couldn't make it, some relatives indirectly implied I was hopeless. Some gave up hope on me. The key point was I never gave up on myself. I fought on and I gotten what I sowed.

Mrs Hua told me in the midst of my sobbing "You see, hard work does pay off!"

Vindication. Just pure vindication to all those who doubted me. There are a few chaps I would like to say my heart-felt thanks too.

1. Guo - Bastard if it weren't for you, I would still have been messing around. The day you taught me Oragnic Chemistry was the day you shocked me into work mode. Words cannot express how much gratitude I have for you. Thanks Nigga! =D

2. Mr Yong - Yeah you gave up abit on me, but you never failed to remind me that "The Final Sprint" was there for taking. It was your constant reminding that kept me moving along. You said you wanted to shake my hand on the day I got results, I made sure I kept my word although it was 2 years ago when you said it.

3. Mrs Cheong - My mother's good friend (No joke) was just simply brilliant. To think that my first lesson I was sent out of her class just after 10 minutes, I am glad I got double A1 for both the subject she taught me. Never failed to keep supporting us.

4. Miss Peh - I kept your words. I wrote narrative. I got A1. I did it. I so badly wanted to see your reaction. I knew you could see us from Heaven. Thank you for the words and that fateful scolding on 2005 Mid Years.

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To all those who didn't get the reesults they wanted : It's not the end. Results are a poor way to judge character and ability. Don't let it bog you down! Fight on, with love!

So a parting of ways. We made it, we are undertaking a whole new adventure in a few weeks time. A whole new cycle is going to be in tack. Memories.

Love, Mark

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1:40 AM

Today's big goal count!

With MPFC : 5 goals
With 4e1 Chumps : 6 goals, although Marcus said 7.

Big smiles. For now. Now to get some sleep. Geez man I am feeling queasy.

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11:10 PM

Hearts thumped, minds raced, pulse quickened, eyes closed. In one drop of sweat lies a worry, in a blink of en eye the seconds tick by. The stability of our minds fail us and the tension of the rubber band is stretched to the max. Calmness and coolness fails us all as we reach fever pitch. Eyes start to dart around, searching for comfort.

D-Day is now 28 hours away. The gargantuan gullotine is ready to strike us where we will hurt the most.

Tomorrow. Friday. 9th Feb. 1430 hours. Bedok View School Hall.

Are you ready, class of 2006?

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Some worthy notes to take note.

1. If you are at home, tire yourself out. Cause, as sure as the Sun shines on all your little asses, YOU WILL NOT SLEEP WELL TONIGHT IF YOU ARE NOT TIRED.

2. Run, jog, soccer, netball, basketball, housework, sex. Engage any one of these activities to tire yourself out. If you want to do the last activity, make sure you use a condom. =)

3. Tonight, most of us will worry and will toss and turn in bed. My suggestion is to drink milk, chocolate or something warm then go sleep. If this alternative fails, try alcohol. Don't get caught can already.

4. Whatever your results, open your minds. Don't be limited by the points. Keep all avenues open, babes!

5. You already did it, so no point trying to hope/pray/worship/hope against hope/hope again/pray again.

Finally. Not good luck. Best of luck to all those of class 2006 regardless of whichever school you're in. Be it Victoria, Bedok View, Bedok North, Ngee Ann, Broadrick, St Pats or private candidates.

Get ready your tissue papers. And like Shawn said, bring along chocolates or whatever that keeps you going. It'll be over in a blink of the eye.

D-Day. I cannot emphasise more already. Now for my 4 hours dosage of soccer.

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9:47 AM

Sometimess right, when I play in a team, I dunno whether is it me or the fact that I too competitive. There is something about me since Sec 2 I think.

That whichever game I am in, I have to be the winner/winning side.

You can call me a perfectionist or too serious, but thats my character. You take that out of me, I won't be the same player. I will never be the same player if I find myself lethargic. Thats why when I am in a team, I try my best to win games.

Some of you know I get fucked up when I don't win games. obviously, I didn't work hard enough to win that game what. So when I don't give my best, I feel lousy. That's partly the reason why sometimes I fuck the team playing with me cause when I see them not giving their best and here am I doing the work, it's not nice. Communism ain't the way in any team.

Sometimes mistakes. Okay, I can accept mistakes cause I also err. But the point is I never give up hope on any teammate on my team. Yes, I might shout shout here shout shout there, but its cause I hope you can be better players. Look at Tom.

Sometimes we learn, sometimes we get screwed. I was screwed by some of the older guys, notably Ravin. It's all up to your persepctive. If one day you can vindicate us, good. Seriously do vindicate us cause I find it nice to vindicate people.

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Its not like I've been sitting back pointing fingers at others and not bothering about myself. I also trying to improve on things I lacked in the first 6 months. Now my challenge is to head the ball from opponent goal kick. So I am getting more and more header training when I am not playing in a match.

It's all about improving man. It's just whether you wanna try and make yourself better of just flop down and sit "Enough."

For me in soccer, nothing is enough. =D

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12:34 AM

The power of guys right, is that we can talk from soccer to sex in like a spilt second.

Ok, I admit my spelling sucks but at the end of the day, something cockanaden from Samuel and I.

AND YES! WE WON! KHAIRUL AMRI!!! Super shot! Don't stop supporting The Lions! Although I remember sometime back when we were booted from Asian Games, all Singaporeans were calling for "Stop Funding The Lions"

No wonder Singapore football produce so little talents and we are reduced to playing Sunday soccer. Bleahs man. Fair-weathered fans? Especially to that dumbbell who had the cheek to write to Forum last time to stop funding The Lions. F*** you if you watched us win the AFC Cup.

So which sport you want us to fund instead? Badminton? Golf? Let me tell you. Soccer is the only sport where Singaporeans are united when they sit in the Kallang Stadium. It is the only sport where you hear the horn, you know the insult to hurl.

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9:50 PM

Its a week to my birthday. Will it be a happy one or a sad one?

MOE - It depends on you.

God, I just had a dream last night saying I got 19 for L1R4. Geez, I was damn unsettled and confused as to where to go and further my education.

Now that results are nearing, I feel the familar "Butterflies-In-Your-Tummy" feeling again. I can hardly breathe peacefully everytime I think about it.

Damn. Its not nice speculating. Its bloody downright unhealthy.

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5:56 PM

It's been the darkest week of my life to date. When I lose all controls of my life, I find that I crash-land hard too.

"When all is revealed, don't look at me in a different light."

I don't want to lie to anybody so here is the truth.

Yes, I smoked. 1 and a half box in just 1 week. I feel disgusted with myself. For holding back the truth, lying to all my friends and the stained fingers I now carry. It's been a week where crazy and dark thoughts run through my mind and the inertia of it just forced me to buckle.

As I lay on the floor, I was broken inside. Broken but not out. Inside me was a tiny fighting spirit, fighting against the avatar that was willing me to do all those stupid things and thinking of stupid stuff. I was being controlled by something that wasn't me. I felt that somehow the old Mark Zheng was lost.

The one who resisted the temptation of smoking, the one who encouraged friends to stop instead of saying "Eh, go smoke leh."

But let's make it clear, I don't blame anybody for teaching me/ not stopping me to smoke.Think of me as an uninterested student in smoking.

How many people will change their impression of me, I don't care already. You can think of me as you like. Like Calvin, I don't want to care about how people think of me. Only a few matter.

To Xuewei : Thank you for your love. Seriously. Even though we are
just friends, it was your words that was the punch that woke me up. I asked you
not to change your perception of me, but I didn't even need to. It's a real
blessing to have you as a "Love" in my life. Words can't explain how powerful
your words were last night. What it did was to shake me up and realise I got
people as dear as you to talk to. I love you seriously. As a friend only
lah. -.-

To all those who smoked with me : Don't you guys ever feel guilty, you
taught me a lesson that can't be taught by others. Don't ever feel guilty cause
it was my fault.

I am climbing out of the destruction of my life. I know temptations will be at every corner I turn. But I know I am feeling like my old self. For now, I walk on with scars from my life. Scars that are dirty and contaminated.

Time will heal those scars. Now, I have to concentrate on the off-season maintanence of my fitness.

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8:03 PM

I am sorry. I really mean it. To Aaron, Varun, Timothy, Daniel G and A, Nigel, Sis, Calvin, Big Bryan, Keith and to all those people.

I truly am. Its the last time already. I promise. I didn't keep my last promise but now I am going to.

Sis, I am sorry especially to you cause I know you will be more disppointed than any of them. I will take your advice to heart. =/

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4:45 PM

Proof that I was there for the finale of Kallang Stadium. For the Lions, I am 100% for them. I lost my freaking voice to cursing the referee and the Thais man.

Lovely chants and abusing of the referee, ranging from Cisco guards to malay vulgarities. Hell, that sure was fun.








Before the match, the 2 enthusiastic baboons from our camp.

But turns out that I shouted and roared like a mad F*** also during the match.











This is what I should be. My life is best suited here. Together with the mat-concentrated supporters, we are Singapore's 12th man.

I feel at home in the stadium.It's like a baptism of fire when the match began.I never thought I would curse and swear so much for 90 ++ minutes, but I did.

My heart has Singapore written all over it.






To the Lions : Fighters you are, we are behind you all the way.

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1 goal, many mistakes and I finally found someone who has the same character as me. Guang that crazy DM of ours. Actually he also just realised when I was frustrated with myself for making silly and noob-ish mistakes and it was then, that I know he makes a good team-mate.

These days, I hardly play WITH him already.

Bleahs anyway, I am beginning to ffeel that I am not yet ready. I think I rushed myself too fast. Today I felt a tweak in my knee again. Maybe it was because yesterday I was already over-strained. But that's not an excuse.

For me, I demand 100% no less regardless of whether I am tired or not. Call me a freak, I call myself persevering.

=D Cheers to Paula DeAnda's Walk Away. It cheered me up in the right way.

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12:24 AM