Goal count for yesterday's Cage : 4 goals but wasted alot of chances.

Bad part : Slight twist to ankle. Looks pretty swollen now.

Oh shit. Calvin's chalet tomorrow. Fuck it.

Carrying your name, close to me.
6:25 PM

Mark - *[ Life goes on. ]* - says:
bryan
Mark - *[ Life goes on. ]* - says:
215 at round table orite
*unicef Bry+10) - Byousoku 5cm says:
?
*unicef Bry+10) - Byousoku 5cm says:
no problem boss
Mark - *[ Life goes on. ]* - says:
lol
Mark - *[ Life goes on. ]* - says:
i not boss
Mark - *[ Life goes on. ]* - says:
boss is shank
*unicef Bry+10) - Byousoku 5cm says:
no problem lady boss
Mark - *[ Life goes on. ]* - says:
-.-

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N-A-B-E-I. Lol

Ok, time to get life back on track. Work work after the tears and farewell.

Carrying your name, close to me.
9:54 AM

I watched 1 of my best girl-friend walk past the Departure gates at Changi yesterday. And as I watched her walk out of my sight, something in me died as well. Something joyful and fun just went away for at least 2 months.

It was hard watching you walk away, even harder to realise that nights will never be the same again. It's now 7.45am on my clock and I haven't slept well. My sleep was filled with dreams. Dreams with scenes of goodbyes, especially vivid in the scene which I hugged you once again and closed my eyes for one last goodbye.

I woke up with a tear sliding down my face and I knew that this was going going to be a whole new different morning.

Life goes on for all of us, be it in Australia or Singapore. 2 months at least before I see you again. And I will be waiting for that day to catch you at Arrival Hall.

Xuewei : I said all I had to say in the book and in my own present already. =). You take care yeah and study hard cause we are all studying hard too. Remember what I told you in the letters.

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It's a whole new day. Cage at 3-5pm. Time to soar finally and score.

Girl, you're right. Things have changed. Nothing is the same anymore. 1 thing hasn't changed yet. And you know what it is.

Carrying your name, close to me.
7:44 AM

Carrying your name, close to me.
9:24 AM

I dunno where to start. I gave it much thought yesterday night and I really phased it out as the taxi sped away from Bedok South. After sending that "LOST GIRL" home, I began my thoughts on another lost girl.

Someone who is in doubt about her friends and all.

Why do you give me reasons to hate you when you know that deep down I still have feelings for you?

Yeah so M has passed and now D is in. It's just everytime I think about how fast you seem to get guys that makes me broken inside. But what am I going to do about it? Sit there count grass and cry?

Heck, life moves on in the day. But at night, it's vulnerable cause it's when I get sleepless nights and I recall most of the stuff that we did in 2006. I torment myself but there is no other thing I can do.

Do I still have feelings?
Never lost it.

Do I have confidence?
Yes.

Do I still have hope?
Losing it fast.

Who knows? The future is a beautiful realm, yet a scary platform to step into. Better than living in the dreams. Dreams which have people gasping for breath at 6 in the morning, dreams which confuse people and dreams that make one feel shitted up.

It's weird that you are trying to make us hate you. Like a hidden agenda or forced hatedness. Things can get misunderstood and all, but the point is you are trying to be the guilty party.

So what you gain from all this? Pleasure? You know as well as I do that I can't treat you like how I used to. 1 jealousy, 2 you are not always with us. But does that mean you're out of the group? No!

I don't understand. With brains like that, I thought you would have been smarter. You were always advising Xuewei about her things. So what happened when it came to yours?

Is this karma afterall?

Carrying your name, close to me.
11:40 PM

December 2005 reminiscene. To a day when I made a promise I am proud of. I kept it until today. And it's just going to carry on.

Will I always be there for you?
When you need someone, Will I be that one you need?
Will I do all my best to, to protect you?
When the tears get near your eyes
Will I be the one that's by your side?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise, I promise I will

Will I take tender care of you?
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Will I be there to make you strong and to lean on?
When this world has turned so cold
Will I be the one that's there to hold?

Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise, I promise I will
Will I be there when you call me in the middle of the night?
Will I keep the rain from falling down into your life?
I promise, I promise, I promise I will

Yeah And I love you more every day
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you (there for you)I promise

"I Promise" by Stacie Orrico

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Enough said. For now, it's going to be a damn busy week. I look forward to the weekends when I can at least rest and look back awhile.

And the bloody storm woke me up at 7am this morning.

-.-

Carrying your name, close to me.
3:21 PM

WTF LAH! I just found out that the cut-off points from last year. For TP's CMM, it was 13 points!

-.- HELLO! I got 12?!?!?! ITS THE SAME FOR MASS COM AT NP

Double -.- This just ruins the nice breakfast I had with my family.

So, ranting aside, I got a little piece of information to share, just in case you are like me who just found out this morning from Nick.

This hyperlink is to show you how many tart-heads will be in your course at which polytechnic for 2007 intake.

http://www.tp.edu.sg/home/admissions/intakes/adm_gce.htm

Enjoy! For now, its the party at Xuewei's house and overnight at Limau Terrace / Limau Rise! It's going to be a good Saturday night!

Carrying your name, close to me.
9:56 AM

The holidays are ending for us, Poly intake students. So it's been a whopping 5 months of rest for me. No work, no studies and just basically free loading. Yeah I know it's not exactly a good thing but I have learn alot during this holidays. A lot more than what school teaches kids these days.


1. That friendship is very fickle.


2. Don't F*** around with $ or words. NEVER F*** around with this 2.


3. How to tarik.


4. Giving up on things that ain't yours.


5. Stand up when you are beaten down.


6. That getting shit results in prelims don't = getting same for O Levels!


7. Critical thinking skills.


8. That MJC is mother far away from my house.


9. Don't compromise morals for the bandwagon.


10. Brothers will still be brothers after what we go through.

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A few chaps that made this holiday definitely something to remember.


1. Daniel and Calvin - The two of you are definitely the top of the list. Brothers, definitely.


2. 4e1 Boys - We seldom meet up but when we do, it's been a fun time hanging out with you chaps. We are going to part already, but keep in touch!


3. MPFC - Yeah it was fun hanging out with you guys too. For all the shit things we do, it's been a pleasure having you guys.


4. The BV guys - For most of you who I saw through the holidays, it was definitely good times again. It was superb to hang out with you all during the holidays.


5. Xuewei - Cause you are like the only girl I see regularly over the holidays? And what can I say? A big big thank you for all the times we went out, talk nonsense and all the stuff we did over the holidays.

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The time is ticking down already. Major dates to take note : 28th March, 1st week of April, 19th April, 20th April and finally 23rd April.


Cheers to all those going in to TP on 23rd April as Freshman / Freshwoman (OMG SOUNDS SO OBSCENE! =D )


Cheers to those in JC now, those waiting for University posting results.


Let's go make new friends in TP! Whoooo!!!











I got a very pretty invitation!!! HAHAHAHA!!!

=D

Carrying your name, close to me.
11:05 AM

Ok, so life has slowed down a little for me. Not so much of what you would call "Exciting activities". Turned down a trip to Sentosa with the MPFC lads this morning cause I had the complusory TP medical.

Nothing really interesting except this fellow TP student who had a perfect tan, nice nice legs and just a pleasant face. Wasn't really looking though, cause I was leaving the clinic already.

Preview-ed some fellow 1st year TP fellows. 1 really nerdish looking and let's just say that if all the people at the clinic were to be in the same class for 3 years with me, I am gonna score top student.

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Think : Pedulum bob and period.

Brother, my trust is in you now.

Carrying your name, close to me.
4:36 PM

Once upon a time, it was my dream to rock the airwaves. I guess that dream was destroyed on the 6th of March. I cannot say I was disappointed with the result of posting because some of my mates couldn't get a posting initially.

Mass Comm was my first love. I really wanted it but hey, I can make do with Law.

Being a paralegal worker never crossed my mind. Say maybe for a wild moment in Sec2 and in Sec4, where I thought "Whoa, lawyers are good s***, they make big bucks, get sexy cars and get sexier ladies!"

Oh well. Like my Aunt said, God shaped things so that I got Law and Management. So I am trusting Him right now, something I haven't done for 2 years plus.

I can't wait for school to start. BUT I just want to study. Right now, all other things are secondary. Okay, maybe bird-watch abit. Bloody hell thing is I think I am the only idiotic 4e1 homo sapien in Law and Management. It's kinda F***ing lonely.

*A note to the above Divine Dudes : Please at least put some eye candy in my course, will ya? Bless my eyes and bless my eyesight. May the lovely ladies show up in my course, amen.*

Anyway, cheers to those who begin JC tomorrow morning!

Carrying your name, close to me.
4:18 PM

Fever pitch anyone?

It's going to be soon already. The wait is agonisingly long for the sequel.

C'mon Santiago!

Carrying your name, close to me.
8:57 AM

Some food for thought today.

1. Holding grudges is never good. Once it happens, let it go.

2. Regardless of whatever hostility, once blood flows all that shit goes out of your head. That's why we are called teammates.

Isn't it?

Anyway, Brayn was being an ass to Guang when Guang got injured. The summary of comic shit displayed by Bryan?

Bryan : " Eh Guang you bleeding already you don't treat the wound now sure
infection one!"
Guang : " ERGH! Can you just shut up!"
Bryan : " Eh I am a realist, I am not going to say "Oh Guang the fairies
are going to heal your wounds!"

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And here is something for thought too.

When recently asked by 1 of his girlfriend's girl-mates how much he thought he will have to give into a relationship to work, the young fellow answered confidently : 5/10.

Puzzled by what was apparently an unacceptable answer to her standards, she quizzed him and got an answer worth thinking about.

"In a relationship, it takes 2 to clap. While 1 person can give all his best into it, the other party must give all to work out the relationship also. Therefore, the other 5 is up to whether the girl can accept me."

Smart-ass answer or something worth using?

Carrying your name, close to me.
9:19 PM

CK, Calvin and Aaron on the right...















...Elroy and Marcus on the left @ Laguna Club.

The day was spent working out and running + cycling. Throw in a short tennis session where Roxanne nearly killed me for not serving the ball to her AND hitting Jiehui-like shots back at her, combines to fun.







Finally! A pair of slippers! From Calvin and Roxanne. Thanks to both of you loves!












And to round off the evening, watched Xuewei and Marcus blade around Limau Terrace and then had small chats here there. Quality time spent with classmates you don't regularly see these days.

Better treasure those days where you can spend with your ex-classmates. Once poly starts, I don't really think we got alot of time to meet up and do shit already.

Carrying your name, close to me.
11:54 PM

Taking a time out until April from soccer.

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Maybe you call me over sensitive, but I make my point now or I will never make it already. It's either I make a stand or I don't.

Principle first or money first? For me principle.

Feels like shit to be "used" by people. Maybe, one day when your boomerang hits your F***ing swelled head back, then will you realise how screwed up it feels to be given attitude by the very people you call friends.

Thats why I don't treat friends that way.

Carrying your name, close to me.
8:44 AM

Guess where ™ says:
i also didnt
Guess where ™ says:
fuck care
Guess where ™ says:
even got also carry on studying
Guess where ™ says:
tot u all play soccer
Guess where ™ says:
then can score a tyco goal
Guess where ™ says:
becos of the earth quake
Guess where ™ says:
haha
Mark - *[ School faster start, I am sick of staying at home all day. ]* - says:
wth man sam
Mark - *[ School faster start, I am sick of staying at home all day. ]* - says:
its not as if singapore was tilted 1 side

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How to tell if you're soccer deprieved and care too much about soccer instead of tremors felt earlier today.

I didn't even feel a single thing today. Maybe I am taking the fact that we're not going to experience natural disasters for granted, but really I am like "Oh, got tremors ah?" , then start talking about other things.

Carrying your name, close to me.
11:18 PM

Posted Institution : Temasek Polytechnic.

Course Name : Diploma in Law & Management.

Course Code : T09.

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Holy shit, dude. I am now on the phone with my Aunt. I think it's not so bad. SO MANY PEOPLE GOING TEMASEK.

As of 9.10am : Darren, Jiehui, Nicholas, Firdaus, Shawn, Irfan, Aqilah and me are going to TP.

Ok, I am not appealing to Mass Comm. I think I take Law and Management.

Carrying your name, close to me.
8:57 AM

It's time to go BALD / MONK / NS-MEN/ EX-CONVICT / MAT.

Why? Cause I want to look different. It's like being re-born into this world, the feeling. Super nice. Don't let your jaws drop, chaps! =D Pictures courtesy of CK Seng.






BEFORE.













1/2 WAY THROUGH THE SHAVING.






















RONALDO'S COCK HAIRSTYLE AT THE 2002 WORLD CUP.











ALMOST DONE.

I think I made the right choice.

Carrying your name, close to me.
10:41 PM

FINALLY A HUGE WEIGHT GOES OFF MY BRAINS! AND THE DAY IS FINALLY LOOKING SO MUCH DAMN BRIGHTER! =D

Today's goal count at Marine Terrace : 3 with 1 superbly assisted by Shawn at kick-off. That was placement at my best so far.

Guang borrowed my slippers cause his tore. I walk around Parkway looking like the typical ang-moh. Thank god my shoes at least show some damage.

CHEERS TO A VERY VERY VERY VERY SEXY AFTERNOON!! THANKS , LOVE!!!!

Carrying your name, close to me.
3:38 PM

It's wierd when thoughts rebound back to you. Stuff that you want to forget and maybe forgotten, just return back to you. Worse it's at night. It's mad that I feel the force of all those "emo-ness" at this kinda time.

It's a big headache, to tell the truth. I can't describe my feelings now. Happy? Sad? Regretful? Wishful? I can't put it into words. It's a mixture of everything maybe. I just wished this feeling can just F*** off. In a sense Calvin was right, I was a bit emo just now. Whatever for? I also don't know. That's pretty F***ed up.

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Approximately 2 weeks from now, I am ironically going to lose a very close friend to medicine. No it's not death, just that that person is going to Aussie to a college and study. I know a selfish part of me is going to want you to stay behind and go through life's next challenge with us together, but I know that going abroad is a big thing and you should just buzz off and study hard! The problem is I dunno how am I going to like adapt to the fact that "Oh, you are in Australia". It's going to feel like something in life was lost.

I will miss your lala-ness and all the stuff like meeting you, sabo-ing you to call me on a payphone, talking and seeing you in person. It'll be 1 les thing to look forward to for 7 years, with the exception of the possibility that you come back for holidays. Just remember us when you become doctor and give us a discount for our sake. The fees these days kills us all when we wanna get MC. Also I demand free medicine.

Today's goal count : 5(?) - With 1 special single where I cut left and then right before firing a terrific shot passt the keeper.

Carrying your name, close to me.
11:16 PM